I really need a double. I want to be someone who can spend all their time being creative, making art & all together making the world a more funky place.
Too often life intrudes upon art. I have to feed the family and buy more dog food write emails and ship packages. This is more then enough for one person to sanely handle. I need a second "me" to run my life while the real me is busy creating.
Sometimes I wish I did not feel this creative urge and I could concentrate on things like on figuring out which health insurance plan I cannot afford the least. But damn it art calls and art always wins.
I am getting ready for the Bucktown Arts Fest in Chicago this month, and I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about what I will make and what I have to finish.
I don't have time to eat, or eat the right things, sleep enough, or I sleep too much because I have exhausted myself trying to do it all. I blame art. It is like a drug. I only feel good when I am doing it.
I wonder if there is a 12 step program for recovering artists
I am SO with you on many levels... and quite a bit more often than I would like - meaning - I want to be creating more, and "working" with life tedious stuff so much more less...
ReplyDeleteSometimes I just have to stop and say to myself - Self - is what you have accomplished enough? Sometimes yes... Sometimes no. And I never find I am balanced long enough (maybe a split second - but that seems like a delusion of grandeur - just a fading glimpse...).
Some things can wait. Try to let some things go - just a bit... (and then let me know if it works for you and how because I am too compulsive at times to let go...).
Chocolate helps... the good kind!
Thank you Marsha. Great advice.
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